I’m done,
I’m over,
I’m through.
No longer a part of you.
Tearing pains,
Salty tears,
Passing guilt.
And deep inside I continued to wilt.
These feelings,
These emotions,
I’ve tried to throw it all away,
But deep down I wanted everything to stay.
The cruelty,
The suffering,
The mutilation,
And still at heart I held with desperation.
To hold on,
To grip on,
To never let go of every bit of what’s killing me.
To continue feeling I wanted to be.
And still through all this,
No matter what I think or what I do,
I know deep down I still want to be with you.
But it’s only a wish,
A hopeless dream,
Because now the idea is far too extreme.
So what I have come to decide,
As your friend I’ll still stand by your side.
Because I can’t ignore it,
I know it,
I’m only here,
A passing thought,
Something now rarely sought.

Right now
I am simply a memory…